Walking, standing, sitting, sweating

To sum up...
Friday night I wore my cute new white shoes that literally slit my heels leaving little blood stains on my shoes, poor me, fashion kills, yes I know, but sometimes it is worth it.... jury is out on this one though, my feet still hurt and it is now Monday.
My brothers visited the freeway and then we went to Slainte's with Adrian...
Saturday... oh yes, get ready to be jealous..... I saw: Jay Mathus, Raising the Fawn, Feist, Bloc Party and Broken Social Scene at Olympic Island on Toronto Centre Island. It was so fun.... So standing.... in line for the ferry; packed like sardines, baking on a cookie sheet, oh lord.... fat American man sticking his beer belly in my back, ew!.... I tried utilizing my elbows but it felt as though they just got stuck, ew!!.... Okay, meditate.... I am somewhere else.....
Got to island... Sat on grass.... all day.... watched bands..... awesome.... several naps.... sat in sun..... ate a rainbow popsicle... It's one of two pictures I managed to get as I had forgotten to charge my batteries.... dammit! Also had a veggie dog, 5$ wahoo.... this better be good.... It was... that's all I ate all day though besides my post-Jack Daniels the night before breakfast of pancakes and eggs, thanks Snooty Fox!!!
Bloc Party played all my favourites including "This Modern Love" I love the cheese so bring it on! After I went to play video games at Adrian's... fun fun
Sunday: Here is where the walking gets intense... Adrian and I walked maybe a total of 20 kilometers and just for fun. I had a car, we had the bus but no, we wanted to walk. We walked to the Upper James plaza from his house. Went to Bulk Barn where I bought some cake decorating supplies. Went to a sunglasses store and I bought the least knock-off looking of the bunch (not having a big D & G or a big CC). Then we walked down the escarpment stairs and decided we wanted a patio beer so we walked to Hess village. Then, we walked to Jackson Square where I got sucked into Harmony, ohhhh on the way, I got sucked into Deja View, tried on some shirts and more sunglasses. I got the one that Adrian said looks like a grandma's shirt, "yes!!!!" and some oversized white sunglasses....
Then after, we tried to get falafel but the good place was closed so we walked.... walked to Hamilton General... visited Jane, I love Jane!!!!
Then we needed to get to the Freeway but oh so hungry!!!! Went into a pizza place... um... way too sketchy.... Is that cardboard the pizza???? We went to sub place... this will do, way too hungry.... Adrian ordered the meatball sub... he is brave... I got the veggie on wholewheat.... The man behind the counter thought it was funny...
All in all... good weekend but my feet need a break.

What a weekend part 2

Strawberry picking with Susan and Zhoe who happened to drop many strawberries and thus had to eat them because they were no good for the basket, tee hee.....
Barbeque was a blast; here are some pics
There are some crazy kids in this community, but they are adorable!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But poor poor Kevin.

What a weekend

Friday night I went to the Six Nations Benefit Concert at Cheifswood park and it was soooooooooooo fun. It had everything a festival should have; fried food, vendors, bands, trees and lots of beautiful people to watch. Pernell and Mark were really fun to hang out with and Steve, thanks for the cigar; so fun and unexpected! Erin you are always fun and you know it; fun sharing the cigar with you. Adrian, be more careful with your knee next time... you could have really hurt Pernell. Anyways, to say the least Freeway people are fun and they are less and less known as Freeway people and more and more just considered my friends, awwww cute moment! Here are some pictures!

Flooooooooooooooowwwwwwweeeers!!!!!!!!!!!!

Adrian came over yesterday and these are what he brought me!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just had to brag 'cause that is what a blog is for and now you all can tease him for being sooooo cute!!!!!!!!! Thanks again, Adrian.

Howard's opening

Randy laughing with Howard and below; what a cute couple!, me practicing bellydancing in front of my painting and me with the lovely Abby!

WTF Indeed

There is explicit profanity in this blog so please seek parental guidance...

The past few days have been interesting. Howard's art opening was good and I will be posting pictures later. I went home this weekend and on my way back, on the 407, nearby where I needed my last tow, I got a flat!!!! My tire was shredded!!! So, we pay how much money to use the 407 and they can't even get the fucking shit off the road that will destroy my car??? The CAA guy told me he is suprised I didn't have a serious spill with a tear like that in my tire. So, that's that. At least the tire change was covered by CAA membership.

Monday, tired....
Good day at work... busy busy.... And then a man comes in, looks at the art and goes up to Randy and says a horrible, ignorant comment about the art that really, really pissed me off (and Randy too). I am just glad he went up to Randy and not me because I am sick of dealing with snotty people! And then, he comes up to the bar, asks me how I am and peruses the menu and lets out a "hmph" and walks out. Gosh fucking dammit, some people.


okay, so now to fix my tires. Go to Canadian Tire at the recommendation of my father and the CAA guy. As I pull into the parking lot which has room for both directions of traffic I hear a voice shouting and I realize that it was directed at me a little too late for me to respond. I heard shouted at me.... are you ready for this... too good to be true.... "Get out of my fucking way... stupid" This coming from a sweet, plump, middle aged white woman in her Ford Taurus circa 1991. I was so angry and I really wanted to say.... wait, don't hold this against me but I just have to get it out just once, please..... "Fuck you! you stupid white trash bitch, why don't you get out and say that to my face!!!!!" But, I didn't have time. C'est la vie.

Okay, so I go to get a price on my tires... The CAA guy and my brother who is a mechanic who works at another Canadian Tire told me they should average 60 or 70$ each. I get a price; 113$ per tire. Okay, how much for 2? He tells me 311$. I ask, "how does it nearly triple?" He says, "Installation fees" I say, "No thanks... I'll go somewhere else..."
I was so mad just because I don't feel like doing shit like getting oil changes and flat tires is such a waste of life and there are a million things I'd rather be doing and I don't want to spend 300$ on something I consider to be a waste of life!
So I go home, throat a little tight from feeling like I was potentially being ripped off and the stupid lady in the parking lot. I called Firestone, got a price, 89$ per tire, SWEET! Installation and balancing included, Double-Sweet!!!!
So that will be done on Thursday

I feel like all this dumb shit to do with my car etc, is tiring me out, so I cancelled myself volunteering at the CCR refugee conference at York University this weekend. I just feel too tired, too stressed and the summer is whizzing by and I feel as busy as when I am in school so I put my foot down and said, "no, I must sit on my ass!" So Adrian, "buy me some beer so we can sit on our asses!" And, I want to go Strawberry picking, does anyone want to come or know of a good farm nearby?

So, after all this, well... it's not all bad; Sunday I got to see Adrian eat a veggie dog, that was fun and last night my good friend Diane called me after being away on a roadtrip for a month and a half so yippee! And, I went to sit and read at around 830pm and I fell asleep and didn't wake up until 7am this morning, SWEET!!!!!!

the cafe

the cafe was busy today!!!!
I was tired after work!!!!
Erin, my client and I were busy!!!!
I had a lunch rush!!! I had to multitask like crazy
And then I came home and had mail!!!! A wedding invitation to my friends' wedding; Dave and Jenn, congrats!!!!!!! Also, my cds came in the mail!!!! Kill Bill vol 1 soundtrack, Death Cab "Plans" and James Blunt, so yes, I am "beautiful" thanks James Blunt.
Erin, you have good eyes, wink wink...

What? a day? My day? today? what happened?

So, worked at freeway. good....
went to brooklyn's engagement party where I watched her get married under beautiful trees and raindrops..... beautiful.... unexpected... natural.... just about them.... not a production but truly a celebration... congratulations and thank you for openly sharing that moment.....

Went to drive home.... walked to car... soaked.... car warms me up.... on highway... wipers stop!!!!! ahhhh, what do i do? pull over.... flashers... call daddy... DADDY!!!!!!! wipers not working...call CAA.... boo hoo boo hoo....... wait for tow truck.... half an hour... OPP checks on me.... 407 engineer checks on me.... where is my tow-truck???..... He comes. I get in. BIG MUSCLES!!!! voice of the movie commericials.... so weird.... We go, he takes a wrong turn... Hey that's my mileage that is rackin' up.... stops for a pop.... that is 0.1 km!!!!!
Talk about midwifery.... his ex relationships.... dating.... so weird!!!!!.... he tells me I have honest eyes and a voice that puts people at ease and he told me that I made his day.... that was nice but.... ah!..... He was nice, not to worry....
But what a day... never made it home.... never made it home to play pool and drink beers with the fam.... maybe next week.
It's all good though, as soon as I pulled over my friend Care called me and said she was coming to hamilton and I said well yes, I will be there as a matter of fact... so everything worked out... nice.... so now I am off to catch up with a midwifery bud over some beers.... the fountain of life? jokes.... everyone knows that that is coffee!!!!!

Busy Busy

I have to log about the funniest thing that happened yesterday. Kevin almost made me pee my pants. Kevin was giving me a ride home and then with a serious tone, asked me to explain to him what it means to be a witch, to which I respond, I know nothing about being a witch, I grew up Christian. Kevin drops his jaw and bursts out laughing (while driving). Kevin thought I was a witch (he also thought I was something else but you will have to ask him for that story, lol).
To clarify my ambigious identity, I am a heterosexual woman with no specific form of spirituality at this time. I want to learn about Wiccan because the values and knowledge of that faith tradition seem important to me but I am not a witch, Kevin, but I am training to be a midwife.... HA ha ha ha ha ha (and no, that was not a witch's cackle).

After Kevin dropped me home I went back down town to the Hamilton Art Gallery and checked out with my friend Gupreet, the Van Gogh exhibit and a monthly presentation put on by the Baha'i faith association of Hamilton called Soul Food. It was really interesting; held in a room in the art gallery -- interludes of Spanish guitar and readings of sacred and meaningful texts. And what was the subject matter you ask. Well let me tell you. Trees, nature, trees. It was created for me, lol. No, it was created for everyone.

Here are some of those wicked-awesome passages, lol:

Suburbia is where the developer bulldozes out the trees, then names the streets after them. -Bill Vaughan

We cannot segregate the human heart from the environment outside us and say that once one of these is reformed everything will be improved. Man is organic upon the other and every abiding change in the life of man is the result of these mutual reactions. - Shoghi Effendi, from the Baha'i writings

When you enter a grove peopled with ancient trees, higher than the ordinary, and shutting out the sky with their thickly inter-twined branches, do not the stately shadows of the wood, the stillness of the place, and the awful gloom of this doomed cavern then strike you with the presence of a deity? - Seneca

And here is something that seems to sum up so so so many of my feelings and values:

The tree which moves some to tears of joy is in the eyes of others only a green thing that stands in the way. Some see nature all ridicule and deformity, and some scarce see Nature at all. But to the eyes of the man of imagination, Nature is imagination itself. - William Blake, "The letters" 1799.

Nature is imagination itself.... Nature is imagination itself... Nature is imagination itself... He says it so simply yet it is so profound. This is so contradictory to our society where there is little room if any for imagination. This speaks so much to me because I can honestly look out my window for hours, stare at the tree branches and not consider it a waste of time. I am looking into something that words cannot adequately capture but Blake does a damn good job, "imagination itself".....

at work

the ac is finally working. Buzzed off two cups of coffee. Listening to the strokes... I have already had three no... four awesome customers. You know what I love to see that happens here all the time!!!!???? When customers who are strangers outside the front doors feel free to meet and greet each other inside the warm, cozy atmosphere of our lovely cafe. It gives me the good kind of chills and makes me so happy I can feel it in my cheeks like Welch's Grape Juice.
This entry is a shout out to all the things that make me happy right now in this very moment; I am savouring every bit of it: Abby wanting to do Henna on me and our conversations about trees; coffee coffee coffee; Adrian always making me laugh; my parents visiting and seeing how happy I am; Erin oh Erin, I love you; my awesome clients; the salsa I made last night (I put kiwi in it... mmmmmm...) there is so much more, so so so much more... basically everyone at the freeway... Hamilton... okay.... I am going overboard but if you need anything from me... now is a good time cause clearly I am in such a good mood... take advantage before I get pissy! lol!!!